confused, smelling a flower

some dude gave me such a look today, it fucking killed me to the core, I dont even know what to do about it

I assume myself to appear to others a fully developed and whole thing, drinking chamomile tea 5:42AM in my kitchen doing yoga and thinking about the weather

I, too, believed in many things but it did not help me in the way in which you may think, unable to believe anything that is going on with my life right now, all those many worlds in which for us to peer

does it even matter if anything happens, aimlessly walking around trying to find food and drink, unsure if diarrhea,

it seems plausible if everything were the way it was supposed to be then nothing would have begun in the first place

I’m sitting here thinking about what to do, outside it’s raining and there’s nothing going on,

I hold something about beauty by which I keep to myself

soon to be happy inside the expanding sun, looking at videos, eating chips out of a plastic bag, and inhaling a blend of fumes,

I felt at a loss so I went away for a while but now I'm back and with something of promise